Im not religious but I do believe God's my savor. My father in law is a Pastor and he told me I won't go to Hell if I committed suicide. He know I have my own demons and if it were to happen by mistake or not God would forgive me.
God has saved me so many times. I was born a miracle as I was born 3 months early and have a lot of health issues. Have ODed so many times. I was even in a coma for 5 days in the hospital for 2 weeks. So I KNOW Jesus is real and I'm here for a reason even though I don't know what that is yet.
I have always wanted kids even have names picked out. (Donna Lynn & Vincent Michael)
We decided not to have kids after a few years of trying and me having flashbacks from my abuse. And to top it off our world is messed up and I don't want to bring kids into this sad world.
My husband has PTSD and anxiety/depression. It's hard at times as I have those issues as well. I give him lots of hugs and kisses. His love language is quality time and physical touch. Mine is words of a formation and quality time.
Before I got married I thought I never I was going to get married. I thought I would become a cat lady. (technically I would be a dog lady as I don't like cats much) . I don't know how i will handle when my husband dies. 😭 I have told him and his family that I will probably end it. I just pray I...
With my issues with abandonment I hate when people leave me and I believe if my husband were to leave me I would die. Like really. I'm not sure if I do it or not but maybe.
I'm not sure if I'm obsessed or whatever with my husband but I want to almost always want to be with him. Like we have to be in the same room playing on the computer or watching TV.
I love my husband dearly and would never leave him but I have thought a friend who is like 50 or so, her husband who is probably older than my dad is cute. I feel horrible for feeling this way. 😫