Hi, I have been depressed for one and a half year now and i really don't know how to get out of this. It's the same every day, i wake up, go to school and then i go home, then i sit on facebook and the internet all day and go to bed again. I have been doing this for a long time and it just makes me become more and more lazy, i find it SO hard to break this negative pattern. It is so depressive and i just don't feel like doing anything, i can't do the stuff i feel is neccesary, like cleaning my room and giving my plants water, only when things gets bad i start to do something about it. I wanna make a change to it all! I really want to, but i find it extremely hard to see where to start. I feel so lonely and i feel like i am just a ghost, i am afraid of people sometimes and i have a bad selfesteem. I am rarely together with people and the friends i have doesnt really have much time for me. I am not in suicidal thoughts, i know deep inside that there is a chance for me to get back on track, to start living life, instead of just being numb and depressive! There is only 1 thing in my life that really means something to me and it is my girlfriend, she is everything i ever dreamt about and she makes me believe in a better future where i can be with her! She lives more than 10000 km's away from me so we see eachothers very rarely and i fear to loose her, because she means so much to me and i also feel like i am not good enough for her, because i have a lack of selfconfidence and i am neither a funny person, but i see myself as a good person and i care alot for her and i try to treat her as a princess and my biggest dream is to marry her! I hope somebody has an idea how i can change my situation and i would like to get some friend who are in the same situation as me, then we could share our problems and try to help eachothers.