Become fully and wholly aware that life is beautiful and meant to be enjoyed has been saving my life time and time again. Mindfulness is self-care and self-love, to acknowledge that your existence fully and wholly here and now is pleasant. Notice how the happiness and joy you’ve been feeling lately? Also, why are you suffering? Because you have chosen to let it make you suffer and to prolong it. Why do you wanna commit suicide? Because you want the suffering to stop immediately and asap. So stop and choose to consciously put an end to your very own suffering and always choose to be happy, no matter what is the way to go. Love yourself and be kind to yourself, embrace yourself fully and wholly as it is without distorting reality.